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Whatever Makes You Mine
04:19
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I’m busy building towers to the sky
I won’t admit that I am wasting time
Be here when I sleep, when I dream, when the devils meet
Be here when I wake up, when I wake up, when I wake up
Whatever makes you stay
Whatever makes you smile
Whatever makes you come and be with me a while
Whatever makes you mine
Whatever makes you mine
I thought that I could make it on my own
Now I am choking on the seeds I’ve sewn
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We rolled a joint and stepped outside
In to the glow of the autumn night
And I want you, I want you to know
That I like it when we let go
And we fill our lungs with hope instead of the smoke
I flew away in search of change
In to the jaws of marathon days
And I regret all of the times
That I’ve place myself on a shrine
And I’ve bowed down with my nose touching the ground
For you, you, you, you, you
I want to make all things new, new, new, new, new
I bought a photo print of yours
Kept in a tube for when I have doors
And I feel like you’re in my room
And it pushes back on the gloom
And I send my psychic words to strengthen resolve
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Universal Will To Become
02:33
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Universe make me a man
Humble as you are
Gentle and accessible by nature
Cause’ to be humble means to be
Open to humiliation
Open to be broken by your hand
I am prone to wield a knife
Puckish in the night
Still I feel the pull towards rising daylight
I see that within me there are two selves, two selves
Now I see that within me there are two selves, two selves
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Social Sucker
03:34
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Post a picture and try to convince all your friends
That you’re killing it
And so you climb up, climb up, climb
Yet I wonder how it feels when you’re coming down?
And they aint around
Still you climb up, climb up, climb
So you wander the wasteland
If I can change then you can change
Beware of falling forever in to de-evolution
You are not yourself
Nor anybody else
Where did you go?
You are not like them and their social sucking friends
Where did you go?
Where did you go?
I’ve been sending flares
As I lie awake at night
Towards your city lights
Hoping you’d finally see this time for what it is
Instead of what it could have been
Knowing to move on
Letting the past be past us
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Tell me how much do I owe you?
Tell me how much did I steal?
Tell me how much do I owe you?
Tell me how much did I steal when I pillaged your heart?
There’s a hole in every glass that I drink from now that you’re gone
Was this how it felt when I sang you that misgiving song?
And what I’ve learned is that when I play the thief
I really only steal from myself
I really only steal from myself
There is mold in every bowl that I eat from now that you’re gone (yeah!)
Was this how it felt when I sang you that misgiving song? (yeah!)
Tell me how much do I owe you?
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I long to be
I long to be undividedly yours
Undividedly yours
What difference would it make if I could hear
If I could see you?
What difference would it make?
I ponder snuffing out the candle that you lit within me
To force the angel’s hand
Because I long to be
I long to be undividedly yours
Undividedly yours
I’m searching for the grace
And for the peace I need to follow through
To face another day
But my fingers they are bloody
As I mine amidst the hopelessness
And I wonder, “Should I stay”?
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Fly Away To Hell
03:53
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You’re different enough to feel unknown
Let the weight of their looks push you underground
Sometimes you just wanna fly away to hell
Just wanna fly away to hell
Sometimes you just wanna fly away to hell
Just wanna fly away to hell
But please
Don’t forget the way the sun hits the lake and dances back and forth
Or the way a sparrow flies
Or the way a rabbit runs away and stays another day
They say, “you don’t belong here anymore”
They quote that book
And they close that door
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Nothing Ever Comes Of It
03:54
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We are, we are waitin for you
Waitin for you to move on
We are, we are waitin for you
Waitin for you to move on
And nothin, nothin ever comes of it
And nothin, nothin ever comes of it darling
And nothin, nothin ever comes of it
And nothin, nothin ever comes of it darling
Often I learn the best lessons when
Releasing guilt I’ve been holding in
I struggle to put in to words
Feelings I’ve worked to unlearn
is it good for you to watch and wait?
You dug in and sealed your fate
I don’t know how long the torches light
Can bring you warmth and give you sight
When did all my memories of you sail out and sink at sea?
You’re not the same but “you don’t change”
Just breathe again
Stop the bleeding
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When are you gonna have children of your own?
When are you gonna buy a place of your own?
When are you gonna start showing up at church?
When are you gonna sleep soundly through the night?
When are you gonna have children of your own?
“I don’t know”
When are you gonna buy a place of your own?
“I don’t know”
When are you gonna start showing up at church?
“I don’t know”
When are you gonna sleep soundly through the night?
Expectations
Complications
You don’t know what you’re asking of me!
When are you gonna stop lying to your friends?
“I don’t know”
When are you gonna confess to where you’ve been?
“I don’t know”
When are you gonna hear the voice of the Lord?
Bright and strong, early morn’
Folded, head in hands?
“I don’t know!”
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Numb
04:03
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I’ve reached a breaking point I didn’t know I had
And now the icy waters carry me away
I think that it’s too late
To ask a favor of you
Don’t worry
I’m not hurting
I’ve gone numb
No hurry
I’m not learning
I’ve grown dumb
I guess I’ll see you around
I passed you on the street and wondered if you knew
The way your words had sliced the living room in two
It’s clear that you don’t know how to let it go
…I guess I’ll see you around…
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John Van Deusen Anacortes, Washington
Small town songsmith - Anacortes, WA.
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